Risks.

"You keep it quiet, but you think
you might disappear before the end."

I'm considering taking a semester off before going to State. I know. It doesn't make any sense. But at the same time, it just really does to me. As much as I can't wait to go to college and meet people and see people and be close to people, and learn a ton and... Just be in college... I don't know. Maybe I should go to India for a little bit. Stay with my great-grandma before it's too late. See people there on my own accord. Have time to actually enjoy my relatives and my culture. Maybe it's stupid. Maybe it's really smart. I guess I won't know unless I try.

I just don't know if I should try.