Contradictions.

I want to bring them all close. All the people I love and care for. Stretch my arms beyond the horizon, collect them from where they live, and hug them to me. Showing them how much I care, introducing them to one another, never letting them go. We could all be a family.

And sometimes

I want to severe all ties with everyone. And run. Actually, walk, since it's snowing outside and I'd have to wear my heavy snow boots that are a constant reminder of just how out of shape I am. I want to walk away and start fresh. Relationships are beautiful. They are invigorating and constant and the source of so much happiness. But they are also emotionally draining. They are responsibility. They are worry and stress and compromise. They are everything pushing me forward and holding me back.

My body is tired. And I wonder if its because I am always being pulled. Being constantly pulled by a string tied around my heart that leads me everywhere I want to be, but maybe not the places I need to be.

And my mind is full of confusion.