Long hair and thin shoulders.

I am inexplicably sad. Or maybe explicably (which is not a word). But I'm just too embarrassed and confused and mad at myself to say why. I thought I had gotten past this. This feeling, this fear, this... just this sense of loss over something I never had.

Over the past three years, I thought I had grown. And maybe in some ways I have. But in others, I am sadly, so sadly the same.