Buzzkill.

Looking through this blog, I realize it really doesn't share the tone my old ones had. Reading this, one would think that I am an extremely philosophical person, and although that is a large part of me, it is only one component of my personality.

My humor is missing from this blog. That's exactly what it is.

But I suppose I've been in a rather downer mood and my writing reflects that. I don't quite understand why. Yeah, these past two or so weeks have been underwhelming, but, at the same time, I should be happier. I almost started crying at the end of Mr. Jewitt's lecture last hour, and I couldn't explain it. I don't know what I started thinking about that made me feel so... Sad.

God. I must sound really depressed to anyone who randomly fell across this blog and is now reading this. I'm sorry. I swear I'm a fun kid in real life. I promise.

On a lighter note, I saw Christian yesterday for the first time since Halloween. I forgot how devastatingly beautiful he is. He came into school to talk to the Spanish classes about Colombia, and I listened to part of one of his talks just because I happened to be in the library. It was funny, because he had to leave out so much that would be considered inappropriate to bring up here; not once could he mention drinking or gangs or the drug problems that affect his area of the country. Apparently all the girls could not stop talking about him, which I thought was particularly funny. Not that I blame them.

Kayla and I went over to Eric's house, where Christian's staying. We talked, but I went there with a mission. I had practiced and ended up asking him to the dance in Spanish. He said my Spanish sounded good, but I'm sure he just said that to make me feel better. He ended up saying yes, but then Eric came in and said that Christian is leaving for Colombia on Saturday night. He's going there for five days or so, and on Saturday night they have to start driving out to Ohio and then he is going to fly out from there at 11 on Sunday morning.

I guess that means I'm not going to learn how to salsa.