Realization.

Someday, I am going to deal with the fact that he is gone. That the next time I go to India, he will not be there. That even the things that should be consistent, have been consistent, for all of my life, change. Change is inevitable. In all areas of life.

And someday, I will learn to deal with that. But right now, I just want to sleep. I just want to get through this last semester. I just want to get into NYU or go wherever I am meant to go.

Good night.

"Hoc est ultimum cognitionis humanae de Deo;
quod sciat se Deum nescire."
-St. Thomas Aquinas; negative theology afficionado